In 2007 I married the man of my dreams, and with much excitement, started my journey as a wife. Quickly I realized in marriage it’s harder to hide the skeletons and dark secrets I kept hidden for so long. After a couple of months of marriage, Troy realized there were some deep issues in my relationship with food, and lots of damaged areas when it came to my self-worth. At the time we had no idea counselling was a good option, where to go for help, and where to even start. We prayed, spoke life into the dark places, cried, fought, and survived.
Fast forward 4 years into marriage and I give birth to our first-born McCarthy. I start the journey of motherhood, which included losing the baby weight, and facing some old demons. I was healthier at this point, but still fighting the up hill mental game. I was determined to some how find health and balance in my pain, because my love for Troy and McCarthy was so deep, I needed this for me and them.
Jump ahead, McCarthy is 20 months and I give birth to a perfect little dark-haired boy named Bennett. As soon as they handed him to me, I knew my heart has just grown in size.
After having both McCarthy and Bennett, I battled anxiety and depression, but did my best to hide it. I would cry in the tub alone asking God to give me the strength to get through the day and do the amazing job of mothering I loved one minute and felt was choking me out the next. When Bennett was 4 months old, I still remember the exact moment I made a decision to launch DailyRoutineFitness. This story has many other details, and there are tons of little moments I want to include in this post, but will save for it for an IGTV story 😉 What I’m going to give you here is a snapshot of the heart behind what I do, and why I so passionately pursue what I feel I have been called to.
In the process of mothering 2 babies, trying to lose the baby weight, struggling with eating disorder demons, depression and anxiety, I was desperately looking for a fellow Mom who would inspire me to fight for my health, remind me how strong I was, and tell me I could love babies and still care for myself. One night I decided I needed to be my own voice of confidence, and as I found my voice I decided I wanted to some how, some way create a space online where Moms could get inspired, be vulnerable and find their strength again.
When I launched DRF, I was still in the mindset that booty shorts, bra tops, and the perfect face is what would take the fitness Industry by storm. Then I started to actually work with Moms and woman who told me their stories, and over the course of 4 years, I have been broken and rebuilt…and I’m still in process. The investment made by my clients into my life by being honest with their struggles, stories, and victories, has changed me forever. My heart is softer, I see beauty I have never seen before, I love myself more, and daily I’m humbled and honoured to hold space for them.
When Adelaide was born, my world changed forever. My priorities changed, the love for my curves changed. I couldn’t believe that I had been blessed with a daughter. Empowering woman through short shorts, bra tops and the right angles suddenly felt so empty. I knew Adelaide would learn to find her confidence, feminine beauty, and worth by watching her mother love herself. So we did something that either makes or breaks a a company…we re-branded! We took down many of the images that I initially thought would connect with and inspire my audience. Instead, I replaced them with the real, raw moments the have shaped my body, my health and my soul as a woman and mother.
A fellow mom recently texted me saying “I haven’t eaten carbs in days! I desperately need to drop this baby weight.” This text is one of many that reminds me my work is far from done. Moms still need someone to teach them to be strong, to love themselves again, and inspire them to look deeper than the surface. When we focus on what’s happening behind the milk stained shirts, dark circles, forced smiles, and desperate eyes, we create something beautiful that pushes itself from the inside out. Launching a lifestyle/fitness blog and training clients was birthed out of a place of pain, brokenness and insecurity. When I realized that there was a world full of women who were waiting for someone to rise up and believe in them, I dug my heels in, got healthy, and started to speak words of life.
This is DailyRoutineFitness.